I wish I was Cas.
I wish I had James as my friend and I wish I could watch Gray everyday and I wish I could smile with my brother Luke and I wish and I wish and I wish.
Maybe Cas is just that, my wish. Cas is who I wish I was. Cas is beautiful and Cas is kind and Cas is intelligent. Cas will be successful. Cas will end up with Gray.
Cas is not sad, not truly.
Cas is the everyday kind of sad where you stare off into the distance and stay up too late at night. But Cas is always better in the end.
I won't be better, in the end.
My end will not be a long time in the future. My end will be bloody and loud. My end will be in pain.
I will make sure that Cas has a good end, in the arms of someone who truly cares about her. Even though she may not get Gray for too long -Cas will be alright.
Because that's what Cas deserves.

--Andria