I don't think I know how to have a successful relationship with someone. I don't know what I'm meant to do, how much I'm meant to talk to them, how much I'm meant to tell them. Because, anything and everything seems far too much to share. I see people all the time being so open about their thoughts and feelings, and it just seems so ridiculous to me.
There's a part of me that's jealous --a small part at that-- about how able they are to just share what they're going through, what they've been through. But most of me is simply angry, because it's a personal thing. You shouldn't bring other people into your issues. It's selfish. It's rude.

So, if I were ever to be "intimate" with someone, I couldn't have something deeper. Because that requires telling, and I really can't do that. It's mine.
Telling would make it someone else's.

I wonder how long I'll last like this. 

--Andria.