Don't believe in anyone. Not your parents, not your friends and not yourself. Don't ever believe that things will work out, they don't. If things were to work out, nothing would ever die. We'd have to live shoulder to shoulder our entire lives. But things die, we die. One day I'm going to be lit on fire or buried beneath such heavy dirt I couldn't breathe even if I was able to.
Life won't help you. Life isn't good. Life isn't about the most beautiful things. You can convince yourself that if you read and if you drink coffee and if you romanticise painful things that life will reward you. You think that life will reward you with a person as cynical, and as much of a pretentious asshole as you are but life will not. Life will give you pain, pain you can't deal with and that's what life is about. It's about spending every day fighting with yourself. It's about being told you're weak because you can't carry a piano under one shoulder the minute you wake up. It's about losing your heart.
And you will. Despite what all those "ageless love" stories would have you believe, you will die with an empty chest and no hope. That's what life does, that's what people do. Don't give yourself up for anyone. Don't put anyone but yourself first.
Because in the end, all that will get you is a group of people who believe you can be pushed. These people will use you when they need to, because you will make them feel special and the minute you want to focus on yourself they will leave because it's "too hard".
They're lying. It's not "too hard", they're just not used to a friend with a backbone.
You will not be rewarded for being kindhearted. You will not be rewarded for loving someone so deeply you'd rather die than see them die.
You will be crushed, and spat on, and hit, and burned, and your bones will be kicked and stomped into powder until that love doesn't exist anymore. Until you're just a pile of ash who spent their entire lives thinking about a selfish twat who never wanted them.
Be a bitch.
Hurt people the way they hurt you. Don't sit quiet when you know you're worth more than all of them. Being alone is less painful, trust me on this.
You don't need people around just so you can pretend you have "friends". You don't need to look like people like you when they don't. Litter. Swear. Smoke. Drink. Be a bitter, bitter asshole. Yell as loudly as you can. Cause scenes.
If you've been fucked over, be the worst person you can be. Be so terrible that you act like nothing is wrong. Then pull the fucking mat out from all the people who screwed you.
That's what you have the right to do.
If the people you have cared about take it upon themselves to fuck you up, create some noise.
Be angry.
Be pissed off.
Be loud.
Don't ever take anything from people you tried your best to love.

--Andria.